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Tuesday, January 22, 2008 6:18 PM
today had a miserable day.. at sch was so stressed!! its like im sort of new to tiz level.. and theres quite a few extra subjects laa.. i was in physics lab havin my lesson.. it was like for two periods.. and im there like one crazy gerl! its like i dont understand a thing! its like im sittin rite at the bck..and i cant hear a thing or see.. as teacher was usin visualizer.. im so angry and stressed up tat i hold my tears. as when im stressed i tend to cry.. tat relieves me.. i do nt want to cry in class because ppl might ask y and stuff.. so i hold it till the end of 2nd period as i stepped out of the class..tears automatically roll dwn like hell.. its non stopp.. i was under pressure.. real bad pressure.. as i reached class it started to soothes down.. i start to feel calm.. teacher was absent for chem.. so i went to kin class to relaxx myself.. bud i cried again.. as i was tinkin too much.. well..i cried becos im afraid tat im gna retain again.. i do nt want tat to happen again.. i had enough.. i feel so remorsed.. i wna succeed in life.. i wna be somebody.. i dont wna lead a empty life.. i have big ambitions.. after sch.. went to slack with nurul kin beshtie and her bf..nt forgettin iffan.. wanted to go for threadin bud was closed dwn.. then went to eat lunch together at zilan.. while eatin beshtie told me tat my admirer was engaged! kin added tat he lost his memory .due to accident! i was like WTF???? and there i was eatin my hands started shakin.. i dont believe it mann.. hes like 1 or 2 yr older than me.. its like i have seen him juz a couple days ago.. he look fine.. its like i shud smiled at him .. and there my stressed was added! i felt so cocked upp!! haish.. donnoe how to express my feelins alr laa.. haish.. wad a day!! =( |
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