Sunday, February 8, 2009 11:20 PM

some people just dont realise how r we connected to them.they simply ignore us, tease us make us feel uncomfortable towards them.but they just dont see it.ask u once u tell me ask the other party when i want to ask you.third party came in you told her dint you.tats y i walked away and im walking away from you.i do not wish to talk to you and see you.i wonder wat u treat me as?
and im still wondering after all those heartaches u gave me and u apologized and i accepted then make me angry again then repeat agin.what exactly u want from me arh?
asshole!no point doing the same thing if u are forced cos im angry or wad.no point pushing yourself sth u dont want to la.does ciggarettes and money make friendship?
i hope not la hor.but to some yes is their answer.theres like not once u treat me like ur own UNLESS u r alone with me cos u noe y? i noe bcos u gt no one else to turn to.but u noe wad i dont care but still listen you talking over some useless ass bitch!but infront of ppl wad u did?
embarrassed me with ur words which i have been tolerating all this while.maybe u dont know who i am really is rite.and tell you wad.nobody knew wad im really like.my sensitiveness,my like and dislikes,my hates my loves..etc.thats y there is a phrase of for me to know for you to find out.but do you like bother to find out?
no rite cos i noe.no point with the long years of friendship if u still dont undastand me rite.
no point crying over a spilled milk but its like u would even cry for someone u knew for like less then 4 years.me lehh?
would you cry for me and i think its a NO cos u treat me like a piece of dumbshit!
u simply dont treasure me at all.and i cant still find the reason y.
maybe i noe bcos my skin colour,my size and im nt beautiful like all ur other friends look like.and maybe i have a very low self esteem.sometimes it really hurt me deep tat u can cry for others but not me.
me and azlyn are better but still its not my fault.i told her bf alr.and bf just said okehhhh another pain in the ass.
haishh.
im nt used to topaz nt in sch la. but theres a replacement called jay.but i dont talk to him like how i talk to topaz .i miss topaz la.i miss topaz pushing me,slapping me on my hand,saying tat i need to lose weight and most of all talking boud sex!
lol.haishh hope hes making a right decision la hor.
what else shud i say arhh..hmm..it really ease my hearts mann..pheww...the picture on top doesnt suit the emotions im talking aboud lorr and i feel much better now after penting them now.i need to lose weight!