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Thursday, March 26, 2009 12:43 AM
todayy seriously im going bonkers. stress siaa. i think the numbers on the board is making me stress like hell ahh.. must inform someone le to erase the numbers of days off.. buay tahan uhh see until get so stressed upp like shit. down to 165 days for today. late to sch again.wahh..xiao liao.. get to noe tat beshtie start smoking again wtf siaa.. omg! i dont believe it siaa.. haiss..people change too fast. met maziz who missed me. LOL. nice..
Tuesday, March 24, 2009 11:00 PM
countdown to N levels is 166 days away mann..stressful siaa.. haiss..so far what have i done is just revise abit,study abit,sleep,eat,smoke more and more. omg!! the numbers on the board is scaring me like shit! seriously i think im nt even ready for it at all im nt doing enuf to meet the criteria.and i find no encouragement from anyone yet mann. parents has been telling me how difficult is life without studies which make me damn irritated its like its nt them who is sitting for the paper lorr..its me ehh..me! ur all only want face! i noe la im nt good enuf compared to ur cousins lorr..but im trying hard here. its nt that i dont want its juz that i need to put in more effort than usual. studying does nt need to be reminded now and then its from the heart.cos everybody wants sth in life! theres no one who is born to do nth.everybody wants to be recognised. theres a number of things i want to achieve in life like getting a good job which pays me more than 2.8k.which i noe what is the right job for me in my situation. 2nd-my parents to be happy.nomore hard life. 3rd-a nice family , home , courier , generations thats about it.nt much rite ? i noee..thats basically wad everbody wnts in life.what is life when u have alot of money yet no happiness? maybe boys can la for one night stands. but could that last long? no rite. to my love-do takecare of urself kayy..u have been ill the past few days. SCHOOL WAHH..damn angry sia.. they forward of the bell rng time by 1 min 40 secs siaa.. made me damn angry i was walking lehhh...then the bell ring.. wahh kanina too much. NG TIONG NAM! U ARE TOO MUCH! DONT LET ME DO STH TO YOU HOR GAY! WALK LIKE AN ASSHOLE! DO YOU NOTICE NOT ARH?? its like my watch is chun chun sch time siaa.. and it has nt changed abit until my sixth yr in this fucking school thanks a million to the new principal. time is precious!and thats wad everybody do not have! get it?? i dont mind if u lackened the recess time and dismissal time, this u forward the time of sch bell lehh.. get scolding free2 siaa from teachers and especially mr fong who loves to pick on me. come on la.ive changed! cant ur all see?? what past is past can? put the past behind us and start on a fresh new life. im turning over a new leaf. oh yaa....i wanna drink mannn...been a long time since i have a dead drunk feeling. my girls please fixed a date okayy..?? love ya to the mars..i wanna shake2 laa..suppliers whr on earth have ur all been arh?? come to mummy plss..i need it yaww.. im gaining weight siaa.. 
Friday, March 20, 2009 1:13 AM
 holidays are here and ending soon mann.. boring siaa.. hmm.. let me list all the places whr i went tiz holZ went to zouk, u noe wad.i cnnt think.haha but today went to mustafa with tan kwang zia alnin. i was like so scared to walk lor.. idk y..since young im phobic to indian guys.. like when see girls they want to eat up like tat.for me laa.. hee.. then came bck hougang to eat dinner whole day dint eat as woke up at 6pm due to yest tonning at regentville condo.jasmine house. ate my mee goreng alr then bakso came.i love meatballs.. while eating ahh..trouble came.throw like 4 or five meatballs away sia... waste lehh...knn..haiss..feel like eating now... ilana cool down kayy.. no point getting angry at that fucker who has always been hurting u now and then. hes just nt worth ur love to syaqinah no need angry over tat crazy guy la. he in imh want then he come out. haha.idk la. i miss sch mann.. xiao aminah.when open want play2.when close want go.haiss.. tmr going breakfast mann..dunnoe can wake up ant? haha
Thursday, March 5, 2009 11:20 PM
aiya...thers nt a day by without stress arhh..boringg sial. i cnnt pull through already.im very weak.im nt like last time la. u c me play2 but u gt see nt i struggling for my studies? u dont rite? as i told ur all alr i will never show it to ur all only result slip only. ur all still dont believe that im now intrested in my studies rite? wad else must i do? u noe tat i simply cnnt study at home unless theres no one arnd. cause when i study i hate ppl to comment on me tiz la tat la.and i noe u love doing so until i close my book.and i hate it very very much! i swear to god! cos u kept hurting and hurting me again and again.maybe u dont realised tat im hurt bcos im always outside or i simply dont show it? do u noe tat i always go out bcos i always wanted to prevents fights and misundastandings at home.u dont realised tat do you? i noee..u just an ass who only cares boud u,urself and only urself.u are very selfish u noee.. i really wished tat u have read tiz siaa.i fucking hate blogging boud my parents siaa but i cant help it siaa..u are the only ones tat hurt me the most.i simply hate home ! ur all cnnt tell rite? i noee bcos ur all never never undastands us.cb!u think ur laptop big arh? u want c ant bcos of tat laptop we can be enemy.i fucking hate u siaa mummy.u never undastand me.u only how to make me cry only tats it.its been a long time since u saw me cry silently rite? what did u did when u saw me crying silently last time? u gave me rubbish! u dint even bother!really sad siaa.. i want cherry....i really want her... i miss her like hell!! what else can i say? hai..all i noe is tat im very weak alr to fight but he will never be over cos u only see me as a hopeless girl who has no future ahead. i want to talk to ms kc.been a long time since i talk to her. lets see..the last time i talk to her one to one i cried for like 1 hr plus. i also donnoe how she make me stop or maybe im tired i stop myself. cocked up siaa.. im seriously behind time siaa got to catch upp aloooooottttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, March 4, 2009 12:06 AM
 things at home have been much better.=) and im nt so stressed alr. i should have believed wad ilana said which is bad luck comes before good luck which is kinda true. cos im nt sure how long is this nice thingy gonna last . todayy was boringgg laa nt like last time so happening. which i was like last time.paikia ehh.. hahaha..=D I LOVE YOU DARLING. I WANNA SPENT A NIGHT WITH YOU SO BADLY. SO BADLY THAT I CAN DO ANYTHING FOR YOU. sory if i upload ur songs late i no like update things to my phone very ma fan.haa.. my one and only teddy bear.i miss ur hugs give me one soon okehh..???=) rite now im worried for azlynn laa.. dont know whr she go.nvr return home and stuffs. xiao arhh this kind of ppl also have.stressed over ex bf tat left her just like a blink of an eye.like knn. wahh super asshole.. i wanna be in a relationship again.i forgot all those feelings tat ive had when im in a relationship.i miss them lots.i really do.. im in love with a teacher in my sch mann.... hows tat? cool? i aslo think so. hahaahaha hope he dont find out suaa...=DDDDDD.. and the thing is.hes nt famous means hes nt adored by alot of ppl i guess. hee..its just a crush laa..idk la.my feeling weird2 lehh..growing mahh...tats y.. nonsesnse arh aminah tiz few days. tmr confirm sian. f&n for 3 periods ehh..wahhh die confirm die.. |
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