Monday, April 13, 2009 11:53 PM

i dont know whr to start but i know im gna blog today.
i should start with a good day then to a tiring day after lunch slept until tuition time.dint go tuition.skipped as per normal cos i hate mondays.i have mondays blues..so pardon me for being clumsy,late,nosey and etc la.
met homies.ben and alnin cut their hair to botak very nice to play i tell you.but too bad maybe today will be my first and last cos fight with ben and walked away.never ever in my life i walked away from my friends but today he made me to do it.reasons for making me walk away was,i really really cannt tahan when my loved ones shout at me infront of public take mummy and papa as example;the last time i went out with them was in my sec 1.i still remember i was choosing my hari raya clothes when suddenly papa shouted faster choose lah!damn fucking loud i tell you. i was god damn embarassed i tell you.i straight away ran away and cabbed home leaving him behind.then mum was she slapped me in the public for using the phone when walking with her that time.that part dint do anything cos i blanked out like suddenly for no reason slap me.xiao.then shout at me because she cannot find her stall.for ben case was she shouted at me because he vented his anger on me bcos of laureen.and its not his first but many times alr.
i really cannot take it until i walked away and once i walked away i would really wish i could walk away forever cos i really cannot take it eh ben not once lehh alot of times alr lehh and what i did ?kept quiet right? i your jie lehh nt your younger sister lehh show some respect can? always following ur emotions.people feeling got takecare anot arh?
when u always needed help i was there wasnt i?
idk which part im nt doing as a jie lehh..
what is it that u want from me?
im really confused! saying sorry wont make my heart heal.it will but it will take a long time.



picture taken at bintan lagoon
how i wish i was there..easing my mind with the sea breeze and the only sounds that i hear was the waves backwashing and swashing.