Friday, April 24, 2009 11:31 PM

im bored.
i really want to shake but homies are always disapproving of it.
i know its not good for me and etc but this is me.
you have to accept me no matter wad what.
today alnin say tat he has i was happy for a moment only before he took out the letters A,B,G
and tat stands for alnin,ben and gregory.i was like wtf??
and i said i never take la.i dont want take also and they continue saying tat u want or not and me always saying no.they always like to use violence on me never a time they use sweet words on me.
haiss if they were to do tat i would be over the moon...wee..but dream on. they will never do that.
today greg and ilana monthsary.i was really happy for them.hope they can make it through it with all their life.its nt simple but still possible.nothings impossible.
and omg!he bought it alr and im like dumbfounded for awhile and thinking wad to get him for his bdae.its like i planned le lei then he go buy.haiss...life is just so difficult!
tats is why i chose to be in my own world even it lasts for just a couple of hrs.the satisfaction is guranteed!
its been 3 mths now.i dont even bother taking his call or reply his msg cos i dont care nomore.
hope i make it throughout the year but i know i cant.
if i were to step in the club i know i would lose it.i wanna club real soon.. been ages since i spoil my ears with the loud music.hahas.

sa1 is just round the corner mann and im doing nothing; actually have.
revising very little and its never enough! i have like for science the whole book to revise and its like more than 16 chapters each.imagine all those formulas and stuffs.omg!
can go bonkers just by looking at them.


oh yaa..
my''bestfriend'' came after three full months and im happy it came but it was a pain in the ass.
i cant even do anything for two whole days.even on the second day.
i came back from sch and slept till the next morning.suangg arhh..felt the sore that i could not bear to even touch it.the cramps tat made homies got fed up of me.its true okay?im nt putting up an act! feeling much better now.


not forgetting.
alot of teachers had knew about my case and my suspension thing which made me angry.
i wish these news will not spread to mr roger khoo ears cause i dont want to made him worry bout me.cos he had enough of me when i was younger and whenever i would bump to him in school he would ask me if i was late or not and bo pian to tell him the truth but now most of it its not late and he would go on asking how were my studies and stuffs and etc.and i would just smile and walk away.cos i dont really like when teachers put high hopes on me ended up in the drain.
and actually now im feeling very useless cos i wanna get my suspension over and done with then only i will turn a new leaf.its like you know when are the dates but you havent get it done will feel very weird mahh.
was shocked when mr fernandez asked me also.
haiyaa..wads happening to me also idk.lack of love i think.hahas.

should i give up?
or
should i hang on?