Wednesday, June 24, 2009 11:55 PM

yohaa..
today day was great until stepped back home.
today woke up at 330pm due last night slept very late arnd 5am.
i came back home at 2am with cuzzies yest because we went to mustafa then to jb with teacher pul,becoming teacher nurul,doctor jihan,and radia and rohaidah tuition teachers and myself untitled.damn sad la.haishh..its okay the journey is still long for me.im gonna get a title! =)
then headed back home talk to lynn cos she facing problems and thats when i slept at 5am.
ditch badminton in the morning with cuzzies and tuition.was quite lazy as not enough sleep.
then the whole day was playing badminton with b.then met with greg and gf,it was their 1 year anniversary.Happy anniversary guys..then ilana and boiboi was their 10th monthsary.then came lydia and lynn..dint talk much to ilana and lydia as was busy playing badminton.hee..
had really gud fun until it was too tired to even smoke.then came back home when the most sickening part came.mum and dad started shouting at me for mixing arnd with b.
its like shes was an addict but no more siaa..people change.its like all this kuno people ought to die siaa..dont ought to live.
till here then..on the phone now

Friday, June 19, 2009 2:20 AM

this week so much has happened yet im still strong.recovering from everything from time to time.from friendships to deaths.
ive never been this strong but i pulled through it and im glad.
rite now residing at cousins place for the time being.
ive lots of things undone.like coursework taking my report book and lotsa of more stuffs and im like worried la especially my coursework.i really have no time at all man.even if i do it will be around this time.which when the school is close.
i think im gonna live with regrets again.this shit always happens to me and i hate it like hell.i always make the wrong move.first was my aunt on fathers side and now its my uncle on mums side.this is because i think too much for friends until i have no time for my family and this is what i get in return.haiss.i have very poor time management so this is what ive planned ahead.im gonna put family first no matter what.how irritating or whatever.second my studies.im gonna push really hard as ive not done well in sa1.gawd!so stressful.i have ambitions to be fulfilled and im doing this for myself.not for anyone but myself!im gonna show the world that im worth something.
i wonder how im gonna live with my regrets now.
it took me quite long to recover the last.so let me do sth thats gonna make me feel better.i feel really sad.i really am.=(
holidays are going to be over in like a week or so.and ive NOT done any shopping or outing at all and thats really bad because after holidays means study.no more time to play anymore.and my play is not that go to the playground and stuff like that its like meeting up my friends for snack or slacking around or even going to malls.


rahim.
he has created me a rule and the rule is i have to goto bed before 11.
wow! its like s0 difficult for me to sleep and he wants me to do it.and i dont think i can unless i lie la.idk who is gonna benefit on this shit but i think he will cos he has to have enough sleep to work the next day.


messages.
ive been receiving all this sisters msges and sometimes i wonder is it just a normal forwarded msg or do they really meant it?thats what has been playing around my mind for this few days cos i have been receiving alot lately like 16 of them.for me,before senting them out i make sure they deserve this msg.im not those that forward blindly or send for the sake of sending.


ps:whatever the case is im still gonna love you

Friday, June 5, 2009 4:18 AM

wednesday
went out with mum to expo with ilana.
suck like totally.
fuck up siaa from the food to the types of food.
gawd!
waste time only.bought kebab cost me like 6 bucks okeh..not nice!
at nite..
slept over at lynn house.
celebrated daddy birthday and hes 45 years old..so young yet have a 19 year old daughter.cool?
unlike me im 18 and my dad is 55..old mann.old siaa..
the age gap is so far until we cannot understand each other.
came the drinking sessions..abosolut with red wine and tiger beer.gawd.high siaa..drank three glasses only as cannot take it.tipsy thats the feeling..then talk talk talk.blablablabla.
girls talk will never end..you should know...when the girls meet up they never stop talking theres always sth to talk about.
went off about 9 at night.the whole day at her house layankan kerena daughter..jahatt..
then off to meet ilana and ben and alnin.
thats for the day

thursday..
went to work.
before going to work,took an hour on deciding what to wear siaa..
seems that nothing is in my wardrobe.that means i need to go SHOPPING!
i really need to.urgently.
students results came out good.
thanks to ME!
YES ME!
im overboard am i?
haha.i know.=)
after work went back to change and out again met up with syaqinah and ridwan came along my cacat lovable brother ben.he was after work.
went to hg point had a lil snack and off to home.
and later at 7 in the evening im off to work again.
and i dont know what comes next before and after seven.
hopes it turn out good.=D

Monday, June 1, 2009 1:34 AM