Friday, June 19, 2009 2:20 AM

this week so much has happened yet im still strong.recovering from everything from time to time.from friendships to deaths.
ive never been this strong but i pulled through it and im glad.
rite now residing at cousins place for the time being.
ive lots of things undone.like coursework taking my report book and lotsa of more stuffs and im like worried la especially my coursework.i really have no time at all man.even if i do it will be around this time.which when the school is close.
i think im gonna live with regrets again.this shit always happens to me and i hate it like hell.i always make the wrong move.first was my aunt on fathers side and now its my uncle on mums side.this is because i think too much for friends until i have no time for my family and this is what i get in return.haiss.i have very poor time management so this is what ive planned ahead.im gonna put family first no matter what.how irritating or whatever.second my studies.im gonna push really hard as ive not done well in sa1.gawd!so stressful.i have ambitions to be fulfilled and im doing this for myself.not for anyone but myself!im gonna show the world that im worth something.
i wonder how im gonna live with my regrets now.
it took me quite long to recover the last.so let me do sth thats gonna make me feel better.i feel really sad.i really am.=(
holidays are going to be over in like a week or so.and ive NOT done any shopping or outing at all and thats really bad because after holidays means study.no more time to play anymore.and my play is not that go to the playground and stuff like that its like meeting up my friends for snack or slacking around or even going to malls.


rahim.
he has created me a rule and the rule is i have to goto bed before 11.
wow! its like s0 difficult for me to sleep and he wants me to do it.and i dont think i can unless i lie la.idk who is gonna benefit on this shit but i think he will cos he has to have enough sleep to work the next day.


messages.
ive been receiving all this sisters msges and sometimes i wonder is it just a normal forwarded msg or do they really meant it?thats what has been playing around my mind for this few days cos i have been receiving alot lately like 16 of them.for me,before senting them out i make sure they deserve this msg.im not those that forward blindly or send for the sake of sending.


ps:whatever the case is im still gonna love you