Monday, January 11, 2010 8:13 PM

this year resolutions are just one and only.
pass my O levels and get into polytechnic.
i know its not gonna be easy but im gonna strive hard although i know i have to sacrifice alot of things.
teachers have been talking to me like a lot recently and i get the point but at least give some encouragement please. i will be ready for o levels once i have paid my debts off. paying for a crashed car is not cheap aite. further more it is in aussie dollars. it will take me ten weekends to finish paying off and that will be the end of february and after that i have promised only to work on Saturdays instead on all weekends. i need time to think through alot of things. i have to think whats good and bad for me this year. i have never pass five subjects in my entire secondary life and give me a break man! im nineteen this year. let me decide my future for myself. stop telling me what to do alright?! although i know i could have done better for my n level. i started late for n levels and yes its my fault i admit. all that does not matters now. what is done cant be undone. important thing is im here in sec 5 now thats all matters to me and im really proud of myself that whatever im doing now its because i wanted to do it. im not being forced or pushed by anyone. its me who wanted it! its siti aminah who wanted it.im not doing this for anyone but MYSELF!
finally..i know what i have always wanted. the feeling is so satisfactory that i can just step out and walk without looking back.

right now im down with throat infections and its making me sick.
really sick and i hate it. all my nights has been very chilly and me moaning in pain. my throat is so pain that i could not even eat.
thanks to the fish bone that i force myself to swallow down which cuts my throat.asshole.
seeing doctor in a few minutes time with ben. i feel so fatigue.i really hope i get well soon as i do not want to miss any important lessons at the beginning of the year.
ta..