FRIENDS;
in the afternoon went out with baby!
went to bugis. walk2 had dinner and home.
just returned not long ago from adam's corner with Alnin,Ben and Patrick.
quite a good outing. get to know some facts from ben although it hurts to hear but im alright with it because im willing to change for the better but will you? pointing fingers just wont work. For Gregory Ho Jia jJun, im going to be stern on you from now.dont hate me cause i have to do my part as a friend.its going to be harsh. i want to wake you up from your ''own world''. i dont want to see you sweeping the roads when you get older.(im sorry).
best part is that they say i never contact them. a big WOW man.
haiss forget it! no point saying it out already cause when i say they give some stupid sour faces and just blame me.better still comparing me with them now. wtf??
yala i know im not the only one taking o level but this really mean alot to me. like really alot!
now i drifting apart from everyone. i can clearly sense it. their hate for me is growing bigger and bigger right kin? right ben? i know..
WEIGHT PROBLEM;
for the first time i think i should really lose weight!!
and im gonna do it slowly or maybe..idk.but i have to lose weight because i cant really run like last time already and i have to cut down my cigarettes as well. its just bringing harm to me not good and the future courier that i wanna have is very strict about weight and here i am gaining kilos after kilos until someone came to me and said u need to lose weight girl.a personal trainer which is today when i met her at bugis.
STUDIES,SCHOOL;
sometimes i lost interest in studies sometimes i pull up my socks.
i really dont know what to do but this year just totally sucked!
all those homeworks are just making me go crazy!
and thanks to homework i failed in ca1. like totally down man.i was like fucked up!
dint tell my parents bout it as i know what they would say.
class is so sucky now! we have to seat in different seats arranged by our teachers.that part im fine.but they put in the place where i dont have the fan and at the corner where i cant see the visualizer! fuck mr ng! whats the motive putting me at the corner huh?! you think i cant study is it? beside the corridor somemore with all those fucking sec 1 students! stomping their way to classes and shouting on top of their lungs when coming back from recess or whenever la!
FAMILY;
mum is totally being a freak! shes freaking out at all the small things or should i say paranoid?
i really dont know what some more to do with her she just..*lost for words. =(
if not comparing me to the cousins, nag, if not nag always tracking me down on my whereabouts.
in every way she can until my friends get really fed up with me! simply hate her but i love her.
and i got to know something..this phrase..'which daughter will ever hate her dad?'
im shocked when i think the answer to it and all in mind was.. yes.no daughter will ever hate her dad no matter how mean he is. idk why but thats just the answer.think about it all troubled daughters out there. thats the same answer u are going to get.
CONFESSION;
IM INNOCENT! i did not do anything wrong! why you guys just dont believe me? i did not get caught by the police!
i HATE homeworks!!!
i HATE Mr NG WEE CHUNG!
I THINK THERES SOMETHING GROWING IM MY STOMACH..GRR..