its been lonnngg since i blogged!

almost a year man..hahas.

2010 has passed and its 2011. time flies very fast even im amazed!

2010 was a year of hell. still remember when i was so kiasu for studying for my O levels. ended up i still fail hais.. what a failure! =(

super disappointed with myself till im stuck thinking and thinking what to do next.

i wish i was strong. its like i cant move on and always saying that im not ready for anything!

all i could do was rot at home waiting for the most perfect solution that make sense to me. i refuse to listen to my friends although they have given me tons of advice. but im stubborn i still want professional advice from someone elder and wiser.

money is also an issue now. im jobless!!

urghh... cant take it mann.. feel like its totally the end of me. i cant seem to do anything right.

whatever im doing seems so wrong and whenever i want to do something, i will ask myself whether do i deserve this and if im being dragged by my friends i will curse and swear myself.

its like im totally crazy uh now. im always belittling myself and always saying that IM SUCH A FAILURE and simply just cant do anything right. i want to get out of this attitude much but i just cant. i tried hard to have all those positive thinking end up back square one! what the hell uhs!

too disappointed in myself alr. i find that god is testing me again and again yet i do nothing but whine and whine like a small child. i really cant help it! i need help. i wish i was more mature so that i can handle things more easier. im so narrow minded thats all i can say.

probably im gonna start school in august or maybe later. im taking diploma in psychology and its gna cause my pocket. bloody hell $10000 uh. haiyo..

i miss anne la!!! i want her!!!

can i adopt a baby? lol